“Put down the weight of your aloneness and ease into
the conversation. The kettle is singing
even as it pours you a drink, the cooking pots
have left their arrogant aloofness and
seen the good in you at last. All the birds
and creatures of the world are unutterably
themselves. Everything is waiting for you.”
David Whyte Everything is Waiting for You
She knows me. All of the beautiful, funny, ugly parts of me. She sees my life now, not as the whole picture, but a small piece of the story. A friendship like that is a lifeline when the world seems unrelenting. So, it would seem shocking to think I almost didn’t answer her call the other afternoon.
Cut the rope and let me drift out to sea. No! She screams. You drift away and we are both lost.
I stared at my phone, picked up on the fifth ring. A quiet “hi” and “how are you, Kel?” Twenty-three years of her voice, a “hi”, a simple question; she is as comforting to me as anything I have ever known. Words came, trickling, one after another to her, an inlet discovered just in time.
My son’s recent Autism diagnosis had muted my words, left my mind torpid, my heart divided. Relief and sadness intertwined, choking my voice. I needed space, a dark cave, time. And she knew all of this because she fights the same beast, she wears the same albatross around her neck. Though our conversation was brief, I felt better than I had in months. Something in me cracked, revealing a sliver of light. And then. Gratitude and love followed, marching ferociously back, surrounding me. [You are not alone! You. Are. Not. Alone!] If I were a religious woman I may have fallen on my knees, given thanks to him/her for the blessing of this friendship. But I am not. Instead, I picked my kids up from school, made a batch of cookies and poured myself a glass of wine.
Double Chocolate Tahini Cookies
Savory tahini replaces peanut butter and pairs perfectly with chocolate in this traditional cookie recipe
recipe adapted from Smitten Kitchen’s peanut butter cookies
Makes 3 dozen (using a 2 tablespoon cookie scoop)
1 + 1/4 cup unbleached, all-purpose flour
3/4 teaspoon baking soda
1/2 teaspoon baking powder
1/4 teaspoon kosher salt
1/2 cup unsalted butter, at room temperature
1 cup light roasted tahini, at room temperature (be sure to mix in the oil well before measuring)
3/4 cup sugar
1/2 cup firmly packed dark brown sugar
1 large egg
1 tablespoon of milk
2 teaspoons vanilla
1/2 cup semi-sweet chocolate chips, melted
1/2 cup dark chocolate chips (or semi-sweet)
raw sugar and festive decorations for sprinkling, optional but adds a yummy crunch
Pre-heat the oven to 350F. Line two cookie sheets with parchment paper and set aside.
In a large bowl, whisk together the flour, baking soda, baking powder and salt. Set aside. Slowly, melt the 1/2 cup of semi-sweet chocolate chips on the stove top or in the microwave. Set aside.
Using a stand mixer fitted with a paddle attachment or an electric mixer, beat the butter and tahini until smooth, about 3 minutes. Add sugar and dark brown sugar. Beat until fluffy, about 3 more minutes. Add the milk and vanilla extract. Add melted chocolate. Scrape the bottom and sides of the bowl with a spatula to make sure everything is well incorporated. Add the flour and mix until well combined. Lastly, stir in the dark chocolate chips.
Place raw sugar and/or decorative sprinkles on a plate. Using a 2 tablespoon cookie scoop, place cookie balls in sugar, roll around and cover completely. Place on prepared baking sheet. Gently, make a cross-hatch pattern with a fork on each cookie or lightly press on the cookies with an off-set spatula. ( I used an offset spatula.)
Bake the cookies for about 12 minutes. Be sure not to over bake! The cookies may look under baked, but as long as they are puffed and just set at the edges you are all set! Allow the cookies to cool on the pan for 5 minutes, then remove and place on a wire rack to cool completely. Cookies will last in an air-tight container, at room temperature, for 2 days. Enjoy!
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