Chocolate Cake Pan Cake + 5 Lovely Cake Links for Mother’s Day




I think of her most often when the lilac bushes bloom in May.  I inhale their sweet floral scent deeply and see her as she was: short, dark curly hair framing her square face, beautiful brown eyes shining below thick eyebrows; strong hips sitting wide, above long skinny legs.  Her easy smile.

I kneel on the damp ground, searching for a four-leaf clover while blades of grass, small stones and drying mud stamp petrified impressions on my bony knees.  Looking haphazardly for luck, searching, minute after minute, for a clover windfall.  She walks by, the white rubber soles of her navy Keds grass-stained, her khaki chino shorts a bit stained with the morning’s bacon grease spatters and long tan arms brushing past her hips as she moves towards the grape vines and lilac bushes.  She pops a grape into her mouth, smiles. She pulls a pair of shears out of her back pocket and cuts a few clusters of lilacs, gathering them in her tanned, slightly wrinkled hands.  I love her absolutely, as only a child is able to love.  She is the great love of my life.

“What are you looking for, Kel?”

“A lucky clover.”

“You won’t find any luck around here.”  She says with a quick laugh and a half hearted smile.  [Decades later I will understand the multiple meanings of that one powerful sentence.]

Thirty years later, hip to hip, we inch across the driveway to my father’s car.  I carefully hold her twiggy arms.  Veins, tendons, bones now evident underneath her bruised paper-thin skin.  The weight of her body leaning against mine is barely felt.

[Time passes.  Time is an unsparing critic.]  

I want a chocolate cake for my birthday,” she says out of the blue.  I kiss her on the cheek and breathe in her powdery scent, hoping some of her smell will latch onto my shirt.  

“Ok, I’ll make you a chocolate cake.” I say as I ease her into the passenger seat pulling the seat belt across her concave chest, buckling her in like I do with own my children.  She smiles, turns away from me and stares straight ahead through the bug splattered windshield.  I know she is moving away from me, letting go.  She knows I understand this.  And yet, come August, with some luck, I’ll make her a chocolate cake.


Chocolate Cake Pan Cake with Whipped Chocolate Ganache Frosting

cake recipe adapted from King Arthur Flour’s Original Cake Pan Cake

whipped ganache recipe barely adapted from

serves 8-10

Cake Ingredients:

1 + 1/2 cups unbleached, all-purpose flour

3/4 cup vanilla sugar

1/4 unsweetened natural cocoa powder

1/2 teaspoon kosher salt

1/2 teaspoon espresso powder

1 teaspoon baking soda

1 teaspoon vanilla extract

1 tablespoon apple cider vinegar

1/3 cup vegetable oil

1 cup milk ( I used 2%)


Preheat the oven to 350F.  Grease an 8 inch square pan and set aside.  (You may also use a 9 inch round pan.)

Place dry ingredients in a medium size bowl and whisk together.  In a separate bowl, whisk together the vanilla extract, vinegar, oil and milk.  Pour the wet ingredients into the dry ingredients and stir until well combined.  Pour the  batter into your prepared pan.

Bake the cake for about 25-30 minutes or until a toothpick inserted in the center comes out clean with just a few moist crumbs.  Begin checking the cake around 22 minutes.

Remove from oven and allow to cool in the pan sitting on a wire rack.

While the cake cools make the whipped chocolate ganache frosting.

Fluffy Whipped Ganache Ingredients:

9 ounces of semisweet  chocolate, chopped or use chips

1 cup heavy cream

1 tablespoon dark rum


Place the chocolate in a medium bowl and set aside.  Heat the heavy cream in a sauce over medium heat until it just begins to boil.  Pour the cream over the chocolate and let stand for 5 minutes.  Add the rum and whisk until completely smooth and shiny.  Cool the ganache until thick.  (I let it sit on our counter at room temperature for a couple of hours.)  Once cool whip the ganache using a stand mixer fitted with a whip attachment until very light and fluffy.  Spread evenly over cake.  Slice the cake and serve with a cold glass of milk.  Enjoy!  (Cake will last up to two days stored in air-tight container at room temperature.)

5 Lovely Cake Links for Mother’s Day

Treat your crazy mom to a crazy cake: strawberry pazzo cake with herbed creme fraiche. Pazzo means crazy in Italian which describes this cake well; balsamic vinegar drizzled over a sweet strawberry cake.  I’m intrigued!

Speaking of strawberries, check out my recipe for a cold oven strawberry pound cake mom is sure to love.  Or head to My Name Is Yeh for Molly’s cardamom vanilla cake with strawberry filling and cream cheese frosting.  I’m drooling.

Looking for a simple yet delicious cake recipe?  Head to Food 52 for their olive oil cake recipe.

Don’t feel like baking? Check out Baker’s Royale lemon ice box cake.  Yum!

Chocolate Frosted Éclairs with Fluffy Vanilla Pastry Cream and Fresh Strawberries + 5 Éclair Recipes You Should Try!


comfort zone:

noun. a place or situation where one feels safe or at ease and without stress

Everyone has a comfort zone. Is that a bad thing? I don’t think so, but comfort zones get a bad rap. “Experts” think if  one stays in their comfort zone for too long one might become overwhelmingly bored and fearful. Wiki How has a 4 step process, with drawings, to help you get out of this scary place. Where would we be without Wiki How? I think comfort zones serve a purpose, a good purpose. They provide respite, and who doesn’t need a little of that once in a while? In many ways I am living outside of my safe place. I feel myself stretching as a mother and wife. I see myself figuring out what’s next when my small people need me less. Yet, during this time of change and growth, I ache for a place of ease and rest. Is the grass always greener on the other side? If I found myself in a place of comfort, would I then need to shake things up a bit? Probably. I think it is my nature.

This week I channeled my energy and baked something new. I accepted Love and Olive Oil’s April food challenge and made éclairs. I find éclairs intimidating. Its made up three separate components all of which I could screw up at any moment. Also, it’s considered a pastry. Yikes! I can make cookies, brownies and blondies. Cakes? Sure. Cupcakes? Yup. Pastries? Ugh, I’m scared. Is it the pate a choux, a.k.a., the light pastry dough? Maybe it’s the pastry cream or the chocolate ganache? It seemed like too much for me, until I came across Joanne Chang’s recipe. I love her cookbook, Flour. I tried several of her recipes since I first bought the book and they were fantastic. Why not try her éclairs?


So I did! The task was easier than I anticipated and they tasted great. The pate a choux is airy and buttery. The vanilla cream is lightened with whip cream making it fluffy, not thick like a custard. Chang calls it a Tropez cream because it is often a filling for a French pastry called St. Tropez: a brioche roll is soaked in a sugar syrup and filled with this vanilla cream. Yum!


Oh and the ganache? Super easy to make and tastes so, so good! Use good quality chocolate because you will taste the difference. Add some fresh fruit like strawberries and you have a perfect dessert. Make these éclairs for Easter or Passover this month and watch your family go nuts for them!


Mine did!

Chocolate Frosted Éclairs with Vanilla Pastry Cream and Fresh Strawberries

Makes about 12

recipe from Joanne Chang Flour Cookbook


Choux Pastry

1 cup water

1 stick unsalted butter

1 tbsp. sugar

1/4 teaspoon kosher salt

1 cup plus 1 tbsp. unbleached all-purpose flour

4 large eggs

Vanilla Pastry Cream

slightly adapted from her original

1 cup milk (whole is best)

1 tbsp. vanilla extract

1/2 cup sugar

3 tbsp. cake flour

Pinch of kosher salt

1 large egg

1 large egg yolk

1/2 cup heavy cream


2/3 cup semi-sweet, good quality chocolate, chopped, or chips

1/2 cup heavy cream

fresh strawberries: optional


To make the dough:

Pre-heat your oven to 400. Line two baking sheets with parchment paper and set aside.

In a medium saucepan, heat the butter, sugar, salt and water over medium heat until the butter melts. Do not let the mixture come to a boil. Add the flour and stir into the liquid until it is fully incorporated. The mixture will look stiff. Keep stirring over medium heat until it looks more like loose dough. Stir constantly for about 4 minutes.

Remove from the heat and transfer the dough to a stand mixer fitted with a paddle attachment. Mix the dough on low-speed for about a minute to allow some of the steam to escape.

Meanwhile, whisk the 4 eggs in a separate bowl. Increase the speed to medium-low and gradually add the eggs to the dough. Turn the speed up a bit more and beat for about 20 seconds. The dough should be glossy.

Place the dough in a pastry bag fitted with a 1-inch round tip. Pipe, twelve, 5-inch-long logs onto a baking sheet about an inch apart and bake for 15 minutes. Turn the oven down to 325 and bake for another 30 minutes or until golden brown. Allow to cool completely on pan on a wire rack. Do not fill them until they are completely cool! At this point the unfilled pastry shells can be stored in an air tight container in the freezer for 2 weeks. They can also be stored in an air tight container, at room temperature for 2 days.

To make the cream:

In a small bowl, stir together the cake flour, sugar and salt. In a separate, medium bowl whisk together the egg and egg yolk. Slowly whisk the flour/sugar mixture into the eggs. The mixture will be thick.

Pour the milk into a medium saucepan and scald the milk. (Heat until bubbles form just around the edge of the pan, but the milk is not boiling.)

Remove the milk from the heat and slowly add it to the sugar/flour mixture, whisking constantly. When the milk is fully incorporated return the mixture to the sauce pan. Over medium heat, whisk constantly and quickly for about 5 to 6 minutes or until the mixture thickens and comes to a boil. Remove the pan from the heat. Pour the cream into heat proof bowl. Stir in the vanilla extract. Cover with plastic wrap by placing it directly on the surface of the custard so a skin doesn’t form. Refrigerate until cold, at least 4 hours and up to 3 days.

When you are ready to fill the éclairs, beat the heavy cream with a hand-held mixer until it is thick and holds a soft peak. Fold the cream into custard until completely combined. Refrigerate until ready to use.

To make the ganache:

Place your chopped chocolate or chocolate chips in a heat proof bowl and set aside. In a small sauce pan over medium-high heat, scald the cream. (Bubbles should form at the edge of the pan but not boil.) Pour the hot cream over the chocolate and allow it to sit for about 30 seconds. Slowly whisk the chocolate and cream together until the chocolate melts and is smooth. Cool to room temperature. The ganache can be store in air tight container, in the refrigerator for up to 1 week. Bring to room temperature before using.

To assemble:

Using a serrated knife, split the éclairs in half and fill the bottom half with vanilla pastry cream and sliced fresh strawberries. Dip the top half, upside down into the chocolate ganache. Place the top on the other half. If you can wait, allow them to sit for a few minutes so the chocolate can set. I couldn’t wait. Enjoy within a few hours!

5 Éclair Recipes You Should Try!

I heart these pretty raspberry eclairs from Spoon Fork Bacon. This is a perfect dessert for mother’s day or a shower!

As a kid I loved banana split sundaes, and I liked éclairs, but I never had a banana split éclair. No, really, it exists. Bakers Royal has the recipe and the photos make my mouth water!

If you like caramel you should Trissalicious recipe for salted caramel éclairs. They look incredible!

Chocolate lover? Tartelette blog has a recipe for chocolate éclairs. Just chocolate éclairs? No! Éclairs filled with chocolate pastry cream and topped with chocolate glaze and Indian praline. This recipe hails from one of the best pastry chefs in the world: Pierre Hermé.

Looking to make a dessert for two? Try mini éclairs! Dessert for Two has the recipe and be sure to check out the rest of her fantastic recipes… just for two.